Balance Required

The other day I had a nightmare, the first 'real' nightmare I can remember ever having. Dreams where mysterious things happen, or dreams of huge waves threatening to overwhelm but always escaped - those don't count as nightmares because they are essentially not creepy. The nightmare I had was creepy.

So it was a great relief to me to have a dream that at least was calm and peaceful, if inexplicable.

Here's what I wrote down a while after I woke up:

"And of course, unlike the nightmare, this one is fragmentary now that I’m awake.

All I’ve got is a sphere of energy with a central core and the concept of okay now you reach in like this see? And the center core is tugged down out of the center of that sphere which pulls the whole into the shape of a tornado sort of, just to demonstrate that the sphere is a spiral … then the center is again centered … and the implication seems to be that you could tug that center out into any direction and unique spirals would result … although, except for purposes of demonstration, the center remains centered and all of those spirals are an integrated part of the whole sphere.

That center is the origin of all of the spirals … they come out from it every which way from Tuesday to make the sphere. They’re all spinning like crazy in their energy fields, wholly complete each in themselves – but also so integrated that they cannot be separated. That’s why the whole sphere got ‘tornado-ized’ by the demonstration.

One spiral was ‘stretched out’ so I could see it but the whole kind of came right along with it and then resumed the sphere shape when the center was back in the center.

It wasn’t like, for example, if I stretched out one of the curls of my own mop of curly hair to see how long it was and then turned it loose to spring back into the rest of the curls …

Yeah I know it’s a mite strange but that’s the gist of the dream as best I can describe it."

And that's the dream, what I can remember of it.

To add to the strangeness, and to frustrate me further that my remembering isn't better, I was a distinct 'audience' to this dream, not an active participant. I was watching ... and I knew it ... and told myself, 'I have to wake up and write this down.'

Did I? No, I did not.

Why not?

Eliphino.

So I'm stuck with hints only, sigh. If I can remember telling myself to wake up and write stuff down, how come I can't remember of what those spirals and the whole of the energy sphere were comprised? How come I only remember a blue white instead of all of the colors my dreams usually have? How come I can't remember exactly what all those spirals are, or represent, or how they originated from that center? Stuff like that would be pretty helpful.

Ah well. Maybe the dream will come again, or another.

For the record, no I do not use drugs of any kind - at all - save tobacco, and the caffeine to be found in coffee and Pepsi. I just don't. And I am certifiably sane, fairly intelligent, and generally well-rounded.

So I really don't have any excuses, let alone explanations. Cope as best  you can.

I'm not a mathematician or a scientist or anything like that, either. I intuit things that the smart people of our world figure out in technical ways, which is fine by me as it consistently 'proves' I'm not totally off my rocker and that my emergency backup marble is functional.

*laughing*

I get lots of questions about this little necklace I wear always. If you know me, you already know that no it's not an ancient crystal with some kind of esoteric meaning. It's a plain ordinary simple marble and I wear it as proof positive that no I have not lost all of my marbles.

As for interpreting this dream, it's pretty well self-explanatory. A 'visual' of what my mind has been struggling to describe - entanglement.

But it also brings a host of questions.

What are the spirals? 

How many are there? 

Are they individuals or cultures or universes or all of the above? 

If each and all are complete within their own energy fields how do they merge? 

Do they affect one another and if so, how? 

How much of that energy is wave and how much particle? 

Is it possible for the energy of one spiral to 'move' to another, aside from that overall 'connectedness', that inviolate integration? 

Do the 'separate' spirals interact with purpose and design and if so, how and why? 

Is there communication as we might be able to understand it within the whole and/or the parts? 

Are some of the spirals bad and some good? It must be so else there is no balance. What defines the 'bad' and the 'good'? 

Are each and all of the spirals eternally spinning outward? 

Are they all continually exchanging energy? They must be, to maintain the integrity of the whole of the sphere. 

If that's the case, how can they each and all be complete in and of themselves even while being an integrated part of the whole?

And so on and so on and so on ... 

Yep.

This is a part of what goes on in my mind all the time. 

The whole thing kind of reminds me of the Circles of Dunnottar only taken to the umpteenth power.