Writing Fiction Can Get to A Person

Actually, the writing part went pretty well for me.  

It's the sketches that are getting to me.  

A couple of them I put off doing until I couldn't put it off any longer - so tonight I HAD to do them.  

Sketching weapons into the hands of the character Sass in my story was one of the hardest things I've had to do and it was AWFUL!  

See, she's a healer in the story, dedicated to - well, to HEALING - all living things.  It's what she does, it's who she IS.  

But her people are attacked and so she must arm herself and go to battle, where she has to use spear and sword.  

Of all the characters in my story, Sass is the one most wounded by the battle, but of course she can't just leave the people who need her afterwards to go off and heal her inside self.

She has to do what she has to do, and she does it well.  

But putting those weapons into her hands, even though it was NECESSARY, still was very hard for me to do.  

I KNOW it's just a character in a work of fiction.  I know that.  And the rough sketches are done now so I can move on to others that still need to be done.  

Here's a helpful hint:

If you are INFJ and doing a writing/sketching project, do the ones you know will be hard for you to do FIRST.  

It doesn't get any easier, putting them off, and you may as well get them out of the way ASAP.  

Just sayin'.