NOT AN EASY TASK
Considering the fact that I'm not quite sure exactly what or who this discovery mission is all about, I'm going to have to depend a lot on faith, hope, and love.
Even so, I at least have a glimmer of an idea regarding how to go about it.
I have been writing more lately, which has always been a route to finding out what's inside of me wanting to get out where I can see it.
I have ALSO (drum roll please) after almost a year of not really doing much on that front, begun painting again.
Here's a new work table I put together in the bay window of my studio, one of my most favorite places in the world:
These are just warm up pieces. Figured I'd better do a couple of them before I went back to work on the painting I want to finish.
For this one I was looking for something soft and calm, not necessarily warm, but quiet.
And so I'm finding that yes I do still have a calm inside of me and that I can indeed find it! You would not believe the anxiety induced by the fear of having lost that. It has been so long since I've felt it that when it actually showed up in that simple little painting I almost wept with relief.
The other pieces, not so much, although it was pretty nice to see the meadow flowers popping out in front of the rock wall. They were un-planned and so a pleasant surprise to me.